Job hunting

I never thought job hunting is this difficult. I mean here I am at first even choosing the companies that I want but now... I don't know... it seems like only a few people are being hired. And to think that there are a lot of us who needs a job.

It's been a really hell week for us...God, give us strength for this last week.

Hell weeks aren’t new to us. In fact, it has been a given that for every semester, there is always one or two hell weeks. However, as we move from one semester to the next, our hell weeks become “heller” or more challenging. Also, from hell weeks, we have hell months and like they all say, hell semester. For us ME, it’s our SMEG sem. True enough, it’s a test to one’s limits. I used to think that I have high endurance of stress. But this sem kinda got me too. What better way to start everything by completely screwing my first stat test? Oh not to mention OR. So as I got my test results, I started thinking of “what ifs” and what now? Can I even survive this sem? Do I even have hope? I have been a fighter and I’m not going to give this up if I know that I could still win (just pass) this sem. Friends, and seniors gave me encouragement, “kaya mo yan!” “fight lang ng fight!” “kayang habulin yan!” I can’t count how many times I’ve heard these phrases and although I truly appreciate them, there wasn’t much assurance of anything. For the most part, I doubted myself too. What if I’m in the wrong course? What if I really can’t do it? Nevertheless, I pushed myself. Physically my body is already stressed to the max. Sleep seldom comes by. I was getting serious migraines and drinking lots of painkillers. I don’t go out anymore, social life was practically non-existent. This week was the first “breather week” I have in a while. Also, I got my second long exam result and I got a C. It’s nothing close to an A but it’s something that means so much. This is it. This is the assurance that I need… actual calculation of expected grade that would not result to an F. Well, I’m not saying that I’ve won already. In fact, I know that I still have a long way to go. But this test proves that I can actually do it. That I don’t have to be stuck in the F bracket anymore. I’m not bragging that I got high, I just want to thank everyone for the support and for giving me hope when I’ve lost all of MY hope already.

Super bitin pala ung last entry ko. Haha...

Going back to philo, kasi there's the primary reflection but because people feel angst and feeling nila inaccurate ung description sa kanila, secondary reflection always follows. I guess for me, I want to prove that i could actually do better than F.

Wow... 8 months since I have last posted anything here....

Anyway, things are getting crappier and crappier! Well my grades are plus a few things here and there. Eating is like a secondary priority. Much more sleeping. My mom has been buying me vitamins and stresstabs which i don't even usually remember taking. I've been getting remarks that I'm looking pale and that I need to sleep. Oh how i wish....

Anyway, I'm enjoying Philo... there are things discussed that I  could relate to... hmmm... till next time... i gotta run...